I have a terrible time-wasting habit that I feel I must confess. When I am on the computer and have to wait for something to load, or have nothing compelling to do, or am procrastinating something I should be doing, I slip over to one of those solitaire games that come free with the Windows operating system. My favorite is Free Cell. I like it because I always win, and I like winning.
When you run into a dead end on Free Cell, you can hit Cntl-Z and back up to an earlier point and try another way. I get rather stubborn about it and rather than ever accepting defeat, I sometimes even back up all the way to the beginning and start over. This means I have to remember what I did before so that I don’t repeat my blunders.
What a gigantic waste of time! I think it is a little bit of the gambling impulse that keeps me coming back for more. When it comes to the horse track or the casino, there is very little attraction for me. I don’t like losing my money and I lose interest easily. So, I have never worried that I am at risk of falling into that vice. (I have plenty of vices without adding a new one.) But if I am perfectly honest with myself, I have a hard time resisting that thrill of outsmarting a silly game that fools me into believing I am more clever than…something. I also get sucked into Spider Solitaire and like to do the daily Suduko puzzle in the newspaper. At least with the newspaper you only get one chance a day and can’t get snared by the offer to “Play Again?”
So, now that I have confessed I will turn off the computer and go to bed.